There are so many worse things going on in the world right now. I should stop whining. Get over this. Move on. It was my fault anyway. I let it happen. I don’t even have a right to cry about it.
There are so many worse things going on in the world right now. I should stop whining. Get over this. Move on. It was my fault anyway. I let it happen. I don’t even have a right to cry about it.
Yummy Sushi Pajamas said
It was NOT your fault, you did NOT let it happen, and you have every right to talk it out. That is what we are for, and most certainly what your blog is for. Who cares if there is worse in the world? That is always true, but it doesn’t mean you don’t have a right to your own pain and anger and fear. You were horribly injured by an evil man, and you have the right to work through those feelings. You have the responsibility to yourself to find some peace.
I cannot begin to express how sorry I am that your mother has been nothing but another source of pain in your life, but I hope you know that you are loved. You ARE cared for and thought of, every day.
greenbean49 said
sorry… i didn’t mean to overlook all the greenbean lovers.
sometimes it’s just really not the same kind of love feeling i guess. i think maybe i have some kind of fantasy type thing about that whole situation and the people who love me probably love me more than anyone else ever could. and that is probably the best feeling. and i’m overlooking it and looking for something better and that is wrong.
and as for the other thing… it just feels so much like this is my fault. so much that it is completely overwhelming.