“I wish I was nearby so I could just come over and sit with you.” C
I think that is what I need. I just need someone to come sit with me for a while. So I don’t have to cry alone anymore.
Fuck drinking. It’s a shitty substitute for a hug.
“I wish I was nearby so I could just come over and sit with you.” C
I think that is what I need. I just need someone to come sit with me for a while. So I don’t have to cry alone anymore.
Fuck drinking. It’s a shitty substitute for a hug.
rainypeter said
I’ll second that. Tried the whole drinking as a substitute and it never ended well at all. I’ll second the sentiment that I wished I could be closer to lend my shoulder as needed. Geography sucks…
Kate said
I found your blog through clusterfook.
So I started reading..
got to the part about going to the ER
having an anxiety attack.
I wound up in the ER a month ago having
a panic attack. Felt like I couldn’t breath..
thought I was dying. Turns out I was panicking.
Why? I have no clue.
Wanted you to know you are not alone.
and if you ever need to talk you can emai me.
Kate
Jeffrey Deutsch said
Hello,
I’ve never been raped or anything close, so obviously I cannot know how you are feeling. I’ve read enough about it, not to mention your blog, to know you really are suffering.
First and foremost, you know it was not your fault. Not 10%, not 1%, not even a little, tiny bit. Not. At. All.
Secondly, you might be allowed to drink alcohol, but it doesn’t seem like a good idea right now and I think you know it. Marcella Chester, whose Carnival Against Sexual Violence included a link to your blog, turned to alcohol after her rape, and it nearly killed her. It also exposed her to subsequent rapes.
I certainly hope there are therapeutic resources that you can turn to, on your campus or elsewhere. In any case, please feel free to email me any time at jeff_deutsch@hotmail.com if you want to talk. You don’t have to go through this by yourself.
All the best,
Jeff Deutsch
greenbean49 said
Pete: Hells yes geography does. Thanks.
Kate: Thank you. Because every time someone says something like that, I do feel not so all alone. It means a lot.
Jeff: Thank you as well. I started something called EMDR today, so I’m hoping that will help. I’ve also decided that drinking is a bad idea currently.
Kate said
I understand.
I have one friend who understands what panic/anxiety feels like.
And unless I can talk to her, I feel alone.
So please know that you are not alone.
I have thought about you every day since I read your blog.
Hang in there.
And remember, you can email me anytime.